wow...this is great...so far i have seen all kinds of small animals: grey squirrels, ground squirrels, chipmunks, and coyotes practically on a daily basis up here, but finally...ive been praying to see a bear(from a safe distance of course) and i did! :) I was walking up this driveway at work near the lake arrowhead area and there was a brown bear and her cub. i was far enough away to stop and look, but i wanted to get closer so i went back to the work truck and pulled up to see the bear climbing on a persons deck to their house and swatting at their bird-feeder. haha. and the cub was taking mental notes:) pretty exciting. I felt like Steve Irwin. anyways, God's creation....it's so cool to observe.
Today: The fog is thick. I believe a cloud is sitting on me right now :) I am sitting at the gas company base in Rim Forest (closest town: Lake Arrowhead) Last week we were bombarded with a storm that dropped 40 inches of snow at my house! to put that into perspective, after shoveling my driveway, i had an 8 foot berm of snow on the side of it- my first day back at work(friday) i was reading meters and sinking waist deep into snow in Blue Jay! Today they say more snow is coming, but where i am at right now it's only rained, and with many roads up here still being thick with ice things get pretty nasty. Which is why i finished my routes early and am bored sitting at the base, cause otherwise i would never have time to post since i don't have internet at my house.lol.
Before posting, i browsed some previous entries and noticed my prayer requests for getting married and finding a full-time job. To update; those have been answered by a Faithful God. As you can see, that full-time job has landed me in the San Bernadino mountains where I have so many experiences of God's faithfulness and moreover, His provision in mine and Stacie's life. Along, with a wife who loves God with all her heart, (and her commitment to Him ensures her faithfulness as a wife), God provided us with a house to rent for cheap, with a church body where we can serve Him, He pays our bills, He keeps us safe on snowy roads, He puts it on other peoples hearts to give us: a truckload of firewood, a snow-shovel, dental work(prior to my insurance kicking in), birth control haha; all of these things have been without cost, and we never asked anyone for anything. God stays true to His WORD:
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think..." Ephesians 3:20
If ever a person entered a process of learning to be humble, selfless, and truly loving- it's a married person. And it's been a huge blessing to my walk with Christ. Stacie is my other half, and putting her before myself is my goal in order to model Jesus in our marriage.
Mon, Dec. 31st, 2007, 02:14 pm
Recently, there have many people around me who have died alcohol- related deaths. An uncle and two friends. I won't go into details. Those of you who know the 2 friends who died- know that it was a real tragedy. A question was asked at the funeral of one, "How are you going to honor ____'s life?"
May I suggest to you- don't drink to honor your loved one's. If you want to honor them- live for them- don't subject yourself to something that could put yourself- or someone else in danger. Alcohol doesn't just affect you- it affects everyone around you including your loved ones. Having clouded judgement is a good way to hurt people you love by making irrational decisions.
If you are a follower of Jesus Christ....your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. (1Cor. 6:19) if you want to honor your loved one who has passed away recently- don't honor them by doing something foolish- honor them by honoring God. you can't go wrong. and in the end it will be soooo worth it.
anyways, i wrote a poem about this situation because it really saddened me that something that seems as innocent as a drink could change our world so drastically.
(not all of it rhymes so just bear with me) (inspired by Proverbs 20, Proverbs 23:29-35, Proverbs 31 and 1 Corinthians 6:19 and Ephesians 5:18)
O Lemuel, Lemuel where are you?
I've been waiting, wondering; in anguish too!
I know where you are. You're out again.
If you heard my voice, would you return from men?
the men who pulled you down from up
they love the darkness; it fills their cup
And you're out again to satisfy
a longing that you can't deny
one that's meant for me to fill
no sex, no fame, no drug, no pill.
O Lemuel, Lemuel you sit in puke
your shirt is torn, your jeans ripped too.
your face is green with sickness mean
you've barfed until your belly's lean.
it's empty, empty like your soul-
without Me in it there's just a hole
filled with things of the world
pride, lusts and every whirl.
The smell of sickness fills the air
I'm calling you, do you even care?
the odors of a dead body are all around
it's putrid scent 3 days sound
outweighs the dark and death felt here
from your folly, O Lemuel; too much beer.
Because my Son He died for you
I show my love, I want you too
I want to cut you free from sin
it's ropes that hold have done you in.
I want your eyes, Paradise to see
the home of love to you from Me.
"Who has sorrow, contentions, wounds?"
He who turns to "strong drink" and booze.
"At the last it bites like a serpent,
and stings like a viper."
"Your heart will utter perverse things"
"O Lemuel, wine is not for kings."
Take my call to reach your heart
and come to me with every part
For in the beginning I knew you would be
with me for all of eternity.
I formed you in your mother's womb
and knew every thing that you would do
I saw you searching to be filled
but I've been right here- just Be still.
It was only sin that kept us apart
meanwhile I've pleaded I've ached for your heart
to return to me once again
I wrote you a letter with the pen of men.
I expressed glimpses of My love
my purpose, my plan, pure as a dove.
I desire the best for you
O Lemuel, come home, start anew.
I'll place in you a fresh, clean heart
One that beats to the drum of art-
the art that paints the evening sky
and teaches the wind to lullaby
I made it all just for you
So you could see how much I cherish you
If my proposal rings a 'yes'
I'll teach you to love like you'd never guess.
I'll show you how to praise My name
For being your God and rescuing you the same.
It Is then that you will see
that your life was meant to be........
God loves you so much that He sent His only Son to die for you- so that if you believe in Him you could go to heaven. Isn't God worth living for?
life is not a matter of eating and drinking- or what you don't eat or don't drink. it's a matter of God having a fulfilled life planned all out for you. maybe it's a short life- maybe it's a long life- nobody knows, but the real question is: Do you want to live life to YOUR fullest- or to GOD's fullest?
Fri, Nov. 30th, 2007, 04:52 pm
in case you didn't see this on tv (since i didn't either) check out the responses to this guy's question...it's very sad.
Mit Romney? is confused as to whether he believes every word! wow....
Mayor Juliani? doesn't believe Jonah was in the belly of a whale!??? If you can't believe Jonah was in the heart of a whale for 3 days and lived- what makes you think you can believe Jesus was in the heart of the earth for 3 days and lived??? sad....
"For as Jonah was three days and three nights in the belly of the great fish, so will the Son of Man be three days and three nights in the heart of the earth." (Matt. 12:40)
but, Way to Go Huckaby! (if that's how you spell it) this guy stands up for God's truth in a nation filled with politicians who are "reeds shaken by the wind" "tossed to and fro by every wind of doctrine" because they don't stand grounded in God's word.
the real sad thing is when i was searching for this video on youtube i came across another political video similar where the question was asked, "What is your favorite Bible verse?" and o my goodness- there was 1 person of about 6 or 7 who actually read a verse. The rest of the people said something they probably heard when they were a kid and then threw some political mumbo-jumbo on the end. man....this is sad....it shows who is really in the Bible and who's not. And my guess is the guy who read a verse- that that's the only verse he knows. I'm not saying this to clown, but seriously...we live in a nation where 26 of the signers of the declaration of independence were PASTORS!!! and these people haven't been interested one bit in God's Holy word??? not even for the sake of history???
We really need to pray for our Nation. Please pray. If politicians who aren't grounded in God's word get into office- the further from God our nation will go. We need leaders who lead us into righteousness.
"When the righteous are in authority, the people rejoice; But when a wicked man rules, the people groan." (Proverbs 29:2)
ps. vote your biblical values....it makes no sense to vote against them- if you believe the Bible. right? :)
so here goes an entry after a long....very long break...i pretty much forgot about lj until about a week ago. anyways, life is a bit crazy right now so i figured i would get a little off of my chest. Right now I am really trying to wait patiently on the Lord and trust in Him, but i must say it's really difficult right now. Stacie and I are trying to get married in March with little to practically no money, I'm waiting on a full-time job- since i have a bid in at the socal gas (where i already work part-time) but there's no telling when the bid could go through...maybe tomorrow, maybe in a year...I know God is gonna work everything out since He's worked out the rest of our engagement. From getting the money to buy a ring to her parents complete approval God has faithfully provided for us, and it would not have been possible right now apart from Him.
So, I am a little anxious about getting that job- hopefully sooner rather than later. Right now times are hard for us because she is in Cardiff, Wales studying abroad at the bible college. Thankfully, we get to communicate about every other day or so, but it's hard not being able to see the one you love, even if you do have hundreds of pictures of them on your computer.
Anyways, her medical insurance just expired even though we thought she was still under her parents insurance for another year (not a good thing when you're outside the country). I just got over the novo virus (like bad food poisoning). We were coming back from Mexico and everyone on our bus just started getting sick and throwing up- it was really bad, but thankfully this sickness doesn't last very long. We all thought we had drank the water or something, but my mom said it was probably the novo virus- the kind of sickness that wipes out cruise ships. Praise the Lord that Im getting better. If the trip to Mexico and seeing the way the families at the women's shelter lived wasn't humbling enough...the sickness definitely was.
So that's what's going on in my life right now. anyone who reads this...your prayers are very much wanted. Job, who had it far worse than anyone, said "my ears have heard of you, but now my eyes have seen." (Job 42) I pray that amidst my small trials I will recognize God's presence with me the way Job did, and really see Him. I want to take advantage of this time and really see God's heart. (Matthew 5:8)
I want to see God!
Mon, Jan. 15th, 2007, 01:12 am
it's moments like these that make me wonder if all those times i was sure i had life figured out- if those were just times i THOUGHT i had life all figured out.....
Mon, Oct. 2nd, 2006, 11:00 pm
I am blessed.....aren't we all blessed.......living in america???
things have been hectic lately, with school and work, ive been packed down with all kinds of homework- far more than rcc! i guess if i ever decide to take classes there again i will be more prepared. i scrape my time clock each morning to get a devotional out...the day sucks without one. my sleep lacks a little, but the cost is small compared to the gain, and i enjoy it thoroughly. there's nothing better. even though work might suck a bit, or might almost get attacked by a pit bull- my morning still goes swell.
i miss being able to hang out; having the time to hang out like i used to, but that's okay, i guess that's part of growing up- im learning. i still have alot of responsibility i have yet to embark on...seeing as to how i still live at home.
i miss my brother Jeremy. He's in Kentucky doing special ops. I hardly see Jon but i guess he still lives with me!? haha. he's firefightin part-time, and working too. Stacie turns 21 on thursday, and we celebrate 5 months on saturday, she is so awesome. She's an answer to prayer and a blessing even aside from that. she's very selfless and thoughtful, and im extremely thankful for these last five months- even though this part of life is difficult since it is still the turning point of: "What am i going to do as a career?" and other 'worries' about the future(which amount to nothing). But i am not in any race to beat some clock, or old age, i know God has a perfect plan (which i would like a copy of :) -it's just a matter of patience and faith.
God has been good to me. im not a rockstar like i thought i would be by this time in my life. and im not financially secure like i thought i would be by this time in my life. but that's okay, God's still been good to me, and i'm actually glad im not any of those things- all the more reason to rely on God instead of myself- since i suck bologna.
and let's face it- if you're my friend on here then i know you- and i know that all of you guys on here are blessed. but don't stop there- take it and run with it....the God of all the Universe has been good to you- you have a choice to respond or a choice to sit in your comfort zone, but if God's been good to you then why not be excited and tell someone? after all- He is saving you from Hell right? that's just one of the reasons. Afraid someone might say some hurtful words to you, might lose your job, maybe even your life? "to live is Christ and to die is gain". you have nothing to lose but that which will burn anyways, so go with what's eternal and do eternal things with it.
Sat, Sep. 16th, 2006, 10:51 pm
a long plane flight across the united states and over the atlantic. Actually, it only took us 9 and a half hours to fly there, because we flew on a nice Air New Zealand flight 747. It was nice. really nice, i can't believe how nice some planes are these days- i watched MI3 on the way there- and i like all the mission impossibles and of course i thought that one was the best. Anyways, we left 110 degree riverside and arrived at Heathrow in London into a celsius system and a cool rain. The missions team consisted of about 12 people from Calvary Chapel Moreno Valley, a few from Upland, and 2 from la habra, totalling about 18 people- minus the missionaries out there, and a few others. Then we took a bus for about 4 hours to Swansea, Wales. They have amazing chocolate there- much better than the united states. i bought a huge galaxy bar and some of it melted on my shorts when i fell asleep on the bus which had no air vents, and it looked like i pooped on myself! We stayed at the University of Swansea in the flats. We met up at the flat and there were all kinds of people there to meet us- people who came to the Lord last year and missionaries from the family that lived there. The missionaries came out to Cardiff at first, then 2 years ago planted a church called Calvary Chapel Swansea in Swansea and the family has been living and the church has been growing- little by little- ever since. Our main goals while we were out there were to set up a skateboard, bike, and blade competition, to share the gospel with people, and to disciple those people and people from the year before to get them more plugged in to the church there, since many fell away since last year's mission trip.
the city there is right on Swansea bay- where the tide moves out almost a good half a mile every day! they have one of the farthest tides in the world. The weather was really nice there. Everything is green- there is no brown. it's very nice almost like green farm, pasture country with plenty of trees too. there are lots of castles over there as well, and everyone smokes cigarettes or fags. haha. i learned not to peace sign with my hand facing towards me because it's the same as the middle finger. and they have this food which is just sausage and mashed potatoes, but they called it 'Bangers and Mash' !!!! hahaha, i don't know why they call sausages bangers- but that's hilarious. anyways, their accents are way cool over there, and if you go to the right places you can get really good food. i had the most amazing italian food in my entire life at a restaurant there. It rains quite a bit over there, but it's not too bad in the summer.
we soaked the whole trip in a ton of prayer. it was a blessing getting to spend that time together every morning as a team- before we went out and did our thing. half or our time spent there was in the city centre walking around witnessing to people and hanging out with many of the same kids (mostly skaters and goths) that we had the whole time. One of these kids was Nathan. and He was 15 and practiced Wicca and was into all kinds of drugs like blow and other stuff. at 15! at first he listened a little bit and kinda asked a few questions and then after a while he kept listening more and more, and finally he told his friend, Badger, that he felt kinda changed by what we had told him- like that it made alot of sense and he was starting to believe. we didn't pressure him into anything and decided to wait and keep fellowshipping with him and his friends since it was only our first day in the city centre.
Later that week, the pro skater that was with us, David, showed a christian skate video at the university of swansea and we got tons of kids to come out- a good 150 or so. and a number of kids gave their lives to Christ that night, including Nathan. I was so excited and just amazed at the work God had done through our whole team- and we were barely into the first week. Throughout the trip I got to hang out with Nathan and skateboard with him and his friends- almost everyday and just share bible stories with him. I was very encouraged and blessed to see him slowly change throughout the time that we were there.
Our team then helped out Christian Surfers UK at a surf competition and a few of the new believers came with us to the beach and got to hang out some more there. We had some of the most blessed fellowship while we were there and not just with us as a team, but with the kids- just seeing God's hand work through the whole thing- He set it up to where we could be good examples for the kids and really spend time with them to show God's love- that He cares.
Then the skateboard competition came around and it was so awesome. we gave out tons of free stuff and got to minister to a lot of kids, and then invited certain kids to come hang out at the flat for one of the last days so that we could disciple them. Nathan being one of them. and we literally spent almost the whole day just hanging out, and learning and teaching those that came more about Jesus- just to prepare them for their new life as Christians.
i really did shorten this a whole lot, its hard to compact 2 weeks of God's work into this little journal when i need to go to bed. i will proabably right more about the trip later.
God is good.
pray for the church out there.
Sat, Aug. 26th, 2006, 02:13 pm
ive been so busy lately. well, next post i will post all about my trip to Swansea, Wales and hopefully ill have enough to time to give details. tomorrow night phil wickham is doing a night of worship at calvary chapel moreno valley. it's gonna be pretty sweet.